Monday, July 05, 2004

Quills
Quills frail and sharp as straw rip through skin; the sound and feel like a sapling uprooted. The grip of pliers releases and a spine coated in a dark and sweaty varnish falls to the ground; there’s a small pile now: a bundle of twigs collected for kindling.

Faint whimpers are little clouds of mist unfurling into obsidian sky. I look at the dog’s pink nose and I can see the dark streak of another spine through her translucent skin; I imagine it digging deeper, catching walls of flesh like a barbed plug. My finger gently traces the line to a slight nub that sprouts like hair from a mole. Steel clamps lock around the spine. I grip my dog’s snout in a hand muzzle; I raise her head to the moon so arm runs parallel to arched body. I look like a man ready to gun the engine of a lawnmower. My pull is hard and fast; my path not quite straight or true: the thorned splinter rings every nerve like the clumsy hand of child running his fingers up the keys of a piano. I release my grip to let her howl be heard. It is an ageless lament, raw and base like the dry sobs of a man unused to crying.

"There are very few people who realise what God would make of them if they abandoned themselves into his hands, and let themselves be formed by his grace." (St Ignatius)